Can You Hear It?

If anyone has had any kind of conversation with me recently, it's a good possibility that I have mentioned the book, Birthing the Miraculous, by Heidi Baker. It's been hard not to! Seriously, this book has impacted how I think about every day life. It has challenged me to seek Papa God (I also looove how intimate it is to call God, Papa.) on how to walk in the shoes that he has given to me. It has challenged me to draw nearer and closer and as flat up against him as I can. I want to hear his heart beat. For real. Does anyone remember being a child and leaning up against mom or dad and hearing their heartbeat? That sound would bring a type of comfort that nothing else could. I still get warm and fuzzy feelings when I remember that sound from when I would snuggle up against my mom. And as I was snuggled flat up against her, I would hear her voice. The sound of her voice was strong. And it vibrated with strength and comfort. I knew I was loved. I knew I was safe. Snuggled up against her was one of my most favorite of all places to be. Papa God wants me to snuggle up against him in the same exact way. If I am able to climb into his lap, snuggle up against him, hear his heart beat, and then hear his voice, I would never be the same. And let me tell you, I looong for that depth of intimacy with my Papa God, like I have longed for nothing else. It is such a fabulous state to be in. I have been drawn to the books of the prophets (in the bible)... Reading these books is giving me new insight and perspective and, hopefully, a bit of understanding to the heart of God. The depth of his heart is just so vast. It will take all of eternity to explore - which is thrilling to think of! But for now, the most soul satisfying experience that I can have, is learning to be super still. To lean into him so that I can hear his heart beat. So that I can hear his voice.